Thursday, October 27, 2016

A Sad Absence

I have not posted in a while, as some of you probably know but for those who do not, last Sunday my mother passed away. She fell, around last Thanksgiving, due to a heart problem and medical problems seemed to accumulate after that until, finally, she could carry on no more. It was, of course, a terrible shock and one I am not sure I have yet to fully come to terms with. She was a wonderful mother, no one who knew her could have ever had room to complain. She was a woman of traditional values, a housewife who always had lunches packed in the morning, always had supper ready when her husband came home from work, helped you with your problems, nursed you when you were sick and was later a very doting grandmother.

She was a regular at church, an ardent conservative in her politics and she loved monkeys, murder mysteries and Star Trek. She liked listening to Dean Martin, she could cook, she could sew and do all the things that girls used to be taught to do. Her cooking, in fact, made her something of a local celebrity, all the more impressive considering that she came to Texas from a far off country and, in those days, had never even heard of many of the dishes she would one day come to master. At auctions for local scholarships, her baked goods always raised the most money, her cinnamon rolls in particular regularly sold for hundreds of dollars for each pan. She hated rodents, was scared to death of cats and was never comfortable around firearms. Even after so many decades in Texas, there are some things that certain people just never get used to.

Dealing with her loss continues to be very difficult. It is all the worse in that, particularly with her passing, the traditional "comforters" of our family are now all gone. I am beginning to feel like one of the 'last of the Mohicans' here. My grandparents are all gone, on my father's side of the family, out of six boys, only my father and one uncle remain and, from my immediate family, three of five children and now our mother is gone so that only my oldest sister, our father and myself remain though my sister's two daughters have been a great comfort. When so many are gone, and so few are left, it causes a very unsettling feeling I can only label as a sort of despair. It's an uncomfortable feeling like being one of the last attendees at a party, loitering around after most everyone has gone home. When you look around and realize it, you start to feel out of place even in familiar surroundings.

Anyway, I didn't write this just to have a moan. When it comes to the web, 'out of sight' is usually 'out of mind' and I just wanted everyone to know why I have been absent for some time and to ask your indulgence as I may be gone a while longer. I have been trying to get back in the usual routine but it is difficult. This has put a great deal of emotional strain on someone with a mental state that, according to the professionals, was not in perfect working order to begin with. I will try to get things back to normal as soon as I can, I am sure it would be good for me to, but until then I hope you will all understand the reason why and know that I appreciate your patience.

God bless and keep on,
The Mad Monarchist

27 comments:

  1. I am so sorry for your loss, this was shocking news. Your hiatus is understandable and mourning is only human. Never feel as if you have to explain yourself. Real life issues come first over anything on the internet.If you have to take off months I'm sure I and your other fans are willing to wait. I'm not going to pretend that I know what you're going through, as each individual is different, but I'm also in a similar situation. Last year, I lost my uncle to cancer, and the very next day lost my grandmother. The thing that really got to me was other family members telling her that her son had just passed,and it was time to go with him.I'm also distant from the rest of my family, most of whom live across the country. Losing a loved one, let alone the very woman who raises and takes care of you is absolutely devastating and heartbreaking. Your mother sounded like a wonderful and kind woman, I hope you and the rest of your family can find comfort. God bless you and your loved ones, MadMonarchist.

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    1. Dear MM ...may our Creator bless you during this difficult time....

      Jules in Ohio

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  2. Your mother was a wonderful woman. You have my every sympathy. Take care of yourself and pull through. I can't share as much here, but I empathize with your situation. I know it can be hard to loose so many people and become the 'last Mohican'. As for feeling out of place, I know about that one too.

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  3. Eternal rest grant unto her o Lord and let perpetual light shine upon her. May her soul and all the souls of the faithful departed, through the mercy of God, rest in peace.

    I am sorry for your loss.

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  4. I'm so sorry to hear about your loss, MM. I can't even imagine what it's like. Of course, you don't need our permission to not post for a while, but for what it's worth take whatever time you need. Thank you for thinking of your readers enough to let us know why you're not around.

    My thoughts will be with you and your family today.

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  5. So sorry to hear this. I can't imagine losing my mother. God rest your mother's soul.

    I don't have to tell you that you don't owe your readers anything. If you feel up to returning to your regular posts here, fine; if you don't, that's fine too.

    I feel out of place for a different reason: people I've known have died and I'm sorry but I haven't really mourned them--I haven't really felt the sorrow of their losses. I don't know what's wrong with me, or if it would be different if it were someone closer to me.

    God be with you, and God bless all your well-wishers here.

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  6. May she rest in peace. You are all in my prayers.

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  7. Sorry for your loss. My great aunt just passed away and she was like a grandmother to me. So you are not alone. Stay strong wise monarchist.

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  8. Very sorry that this has happened. Losing a parent is one of the hardest things we go through. Didn't Her Majesty say something like this, "Grief is the price we pay for love"?

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  9. Two weeks ago (October 13) marked one year since the passing of my own mother. My father died several years earlier at the age of 95. Even though I've already gone through what you are going through, that experience doesn't prepare me to comfort others. I doubt that it ever does. May you accept God's comfort during this time.

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  10. I think Jonathan needs lots of prayer. Doesn't seem like he's had much love in his life.

    I have never thought Mr. MM has ever mentioned that these unfortunate things never happened. Absolute power DOES corrupt, absolutely, very true. I don't think you can put all the blame upon the ruling monarch of that time and place.

    Anyway----I would have much rather been under the rule of some "imperialist power" rather than the communistic and/or fascists regimes that killed and brutalized many millions more people than the "imperialists" ever did!

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  11. Sorry for your loss. God hath not promised sun without rain,
    Joy without sorrow, peace without pain.

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  12. I am so sorry. May she rest in peace. Take your time your time and come back when you are ready.

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  13. Differences aside, very sorry for your loss.

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  14. Keep faith in time of suffering. Your intellectual contribution will long out live your absence. I would like to take this opportunity to say thank you for what you've made here. I pray that you find peace comrade. Though I have never met you, I will include you in my prayers. God bless and have a better tomorrow.

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  15. My sincere condolences. I understand, in a way, how you feel as my mother passed away last May

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  16. Sorry for your loss. :(
    Johan - Cape Town

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  17. My condolences for your loss.

    May perpetual light shine upon her and may she rest in peace. God love you.

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  18. my deepest condolences for you, I know the pain of losing a loved one and understand, please take as long as you need and stay strong

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  19. I give my sincerest condolences for the loss of your mother. As someone who's mother has dementia, I know what it's like to see a loved one fall to health problems, and while I cannot pretend to know what it's like to lose them yet, I can greatly sympathize with your circumstances. I'm sure your mother was a wonderful woman, and I'm sure she's up in Heaven right now. You certainly don't need our permission on when to post - you are the absolute monarch of this kingdom on the internet. I've said it before, and I shall say it again; God bless you, your family, and everyone here. God Bless the cause of Monarchism, and God bless the King of the Monarchists, you, your Madness. May God be with us all in our struggle.

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  20. You have my deepest condolences. I shall pray for your mother and also for you and your family.

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  21. I am so terribly sorry to hear of the passing of your Mother. It is never easy on anyone when the time comes. My cympathy and condolences.

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  22. My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family. Rest in peace.

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